Human non-vegetated（一）

Since the sequence
This book is intended to be called "suffering", but seriously I thought, how hard it deserves the more bitter suffering? Nor a clear definition. For example, some people narrowly escaped death, died last September back alive, how the suffering of those nine count it? Should be a happy to offset it.
I may be suffering more than the people in front, but must be better than the people behind the well-being. Someone behind me, a crazy insane, and even some of the blind had paraplegia. It regarded the suffering? Another gentleman, and he dug dig heart lung in love with a woman, when was sternly refused, his heart sudden death, and he felt even the realm of suffering are lower than the.
From this, "suffering" as the term a huge target, host to the suffering in the name of the numerous bullet holes.
In addition, I also fear "suffering" effect will have a "poor" effect. "Poor" in this phrase is, "because of" good and "fruit", but now it is different, one day I suddenly heard a "poor man must have hated the place," then, thinking that this would end! I immediately appraise the definition of their own destiny into question, and even "no poor person shall place no hateful" dare not rhetorical.
My writing.
For writing, you do not want to say love is a very easy thing to do.
I'm always involved when it comes to the writing life, I say always involve writing life. Writing and life support for my life, I can not tell which is which is the beam column. So, someone asked how can I continue writing twenty years? I am honest answer, not the writing I insisted, but to write it help me, let my soul in a hopeless time, always grasp the side of the banks of the Shen Zhou root straw of hope.
My experience has been run my life, it was too cruel.
Year-old lost his father, forty-year-old lost marriages, lost three-fifty-year-old son --- my life is one of three unfortunate enough to be a monopoly.
I am thirty-year-old in 1984, from side to side sweat Wo soil under junior high school pondering text. And three years later, into the city is also the side of the business side of writing. To be honest, if not difficult twists and turns of Chinese vocabulary has been entrenched with the brain's use of space, almost equal to those ravaged heart pain may shy away from, such as water years really do not know how it will flow away from me.
1962 State of the "border" policy aimed at evacuation of the urban population, twelve years old I went with my parents came from the coastal city of Tianjin, Inner Mongolia Loop plain. When I first came nowhere near enough to pay for food every year around the spring of mothers with begging --- I was six and nine, brother. I was in junior high school, eating into the Family Names of steamed bread, but also eat into the vicissitudes of life.
1966 Cultural Revolution. Cultural Revolution killed the first two months of my career --- I went into the examination room admissions in Inner Mongolia College of Art and later to the invigilator Chen said, I got accepted, so notice it. Came the Cultural Revolution, is another argument: The examination set aside! Vast rural areas you still go back to accomplish a great deal it. For this reason, a fear of my life to hear "the examination room," the term.
In 1969, I married the age of nineteen embarked on the road, four twelve-year-old single. I and four children before and after marriage through thick and thin for their livelihoods, to the crossroads from the vegetable market did seven or eight trading, its meaning has lost more than just turn the page and make many of our days are spent in the absurd.
Let me say a life. My son never sampan in a three-night with a wheel to form a point of intersection, this intersection is black, and his blood is red, not the last part of the farewell between us and the language, so I wrote to him is colorless to the text. It made me miss him from the pain of living in the.
Replaced at an angle. If subjected to another big blow I must live, then the first for a living every day and run around; If I run around in a boring can be a little comfort in the color, it would have to pondering the text --- Gv At this point, I do not recognize that they are "beds many."
Twenty-year-old third son go that day, my "dust to fly into tears," just off the set of the first draft, so then I trance with himself: the soul that I never sampan this novel bookmark it?
Twenty years, I wrote ah write, to laughter and tears to get a hold, and the like will turn into writing later, the original intention of writing does not seem so simplistic. So I know one thing: it is my writing career, a very worthy cause I'm worth untold hardships. Although the pay is a luxury --- because I consume a lot of time and effort; and harvest --- is not a luxury for the weight because I could not write.
Eight years ago I released an article entitled "hit the glass of the sparrow," the essay, I described in that article was the result of unsuccessful Lu Dongyun students wandering around, but I admire the tone of writing is, I admire He reached the street as a means of tourism. Because I was not a stray also can not afford to travel, so I think this sparrow in an area of Gansu, which if you see a glass of water inside the window, would have been the first burst hit the glass to the brains die.
I certainly understand that tourism can help my writing, but I could not even travel around the city can not do, we can only sit in my little car behind closed doors.
Over the years I have the leverage in the middle of upright life, writing is a balance to the left, right livelihood is the balance. Cut on either side, I would have collapsed.
Livelihoods of the first great fool, so long as there is sweat and bitterness can reach the realm of existence, and the text that I was vomiting into a lot of effort. Now this effort has also been back, my work has received awards there provincial municipal level, and I also became the Inner Writers Association, the city Writers Association Vice-Chairman.
Vegetables from crying, to 0.99 square meters of operating a small cart selling groceries, and then again to open a small word for it, which the middle for a daughter to college, their economic condition is self-evident, but I'm willing to live frugally provinces out of Those copper, Zhengjingbabai to buy their own books published by ISBN, I have only the feeling is: value.
"Dust flying into tears" after the publication of female bodybuilding has been Beijing R & D manager Mr. Li Boda products for their funding, so I also completed in 2006 and published a novel, two hundred and twenty thousand words "second or you" and two more than ten million words of the "short-Ming Chan Collection."
I am also with the economic and social changes in the economy, this book is not strapped, so no real gentleman Who funded.
This "man of non-vegetation," wrote my real experience.
As a writer who, I was trying to write their own experiences, but it will hurt for a write to the others. I have said, so do not bite when moving cabbage write it, by that time everyone will Staggering are unable to find anger, because of years distant and too lazy to seriously.
However, even the cabbage Duyao not move, I also ate move out text? --- Sun Tzu also wrote that what is written, vibrant sharp, inert gas day, apathy return.
Write yeah? Jesus did not write? Grain prices are low farmers, hurt the people in your valley!
Anyway, I still write. I dragged this writing no matter where one, hope you understand me, forgive me, do not care about me --- Thank you.
I always appreciate the phrase called "stubborn," the phrase that I have been walking along this road. My obsession to go away, I walk to discover it.